Tonight was another affirmation of the idea that a trip to the gym always provides clarity. Whenever I am not sure what to do about something, or upset about something, or what have you, I am going to head directly to the gym. When I was running tonight, I had an epipheny. Actually, it was probably due to the multitude of deep conversations I had today, but it seemed to all come together in the middle of the second uphill mile.
Now is my chance to start over.
For the past few weeks, I have been looking at the end of everything. It is the end of my TFA committment. The end of teaching. In four weeks, the end of Boy#4. The end of life in WeHo with Alekandrizx.
I keep forgetting to see the beginning that comes after the end. It is the beginning of a new job, with new challenges that will most likely shape my life. It is the beginning of being single again, scary, but exciting at the same time. It is the beginning of a time when I can work on myself, so I am better in the next relationship that may come along. It is the beginning of life in Los Feliz/Silverlake, in my own apartment, where I can walk around naked if I want. It is the beginning of having a vacation home in Long Beach. It is the beginning of me calling my friends when I want to see them, and being OK if they don't call me.
Therefore, I am throwing out my January 1, 2005. On July 1, I begin my new year, starting with my new job. I am going to make a conscious effort to be better, in all aspects of my life. Fortunately, I have a blog to keep me in check. ;)
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
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so, how long are you gonna use song titles for your headlines?
suggestions
"ruin my day"
"back that ass up"
"i'm kind of buzzed and its all because this is how we do it"
"i feel a bad moon rising"
"how come you don't call me?"
"when you wake up feeling old"
love ya darling.
I didn't really have anything important to say. maybe later.
hi nimitz people. markham is quite lovely in the morning
Did you like the spelling of your name in this post, Phaliandrilex?
I do enjoy it, I do.
I love every reincarnation of my name.
I hope you kept all my names, cause I want a list
Hey! The fourth of july is independence day!
Hey! The fourth of july is independence day!
Yeah, I don't have anything important to say either. Except Ray is a "perro." Has he kissed you all on the mouth yet? I suggest "I Will Survive" as a blog title. Hmmmm. I'm bored. Kids were coming to my class to DITCH the civil war fair. Ha ha. Some girl got mad at me for taking a picture of her in the civil war gear. Why would you make a spectacle of yourself if you don't want to save it to be immortalized?
Everyone reading this, make SURE Amy comes to bike night tonight. Jon's got a biker for her and we don't want to disappoint her again. Tell Jayna to go too. Apparently they have really busy schedules...
Hey, I want everyone to know that my "real age" is 25!!!
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